Eight months since the beginning of this blog and three months since my last post. When I started these place I wanted it to be a record of all the experiences I would go through this year. I thought about it as a “blog of action”. However, as my Erasmus period in Granada is coming to an end, I have to admit, I might have got it wrong.
First of all, I have come to the point of realising that I have probably overgrown this all Erasmus and partying thing. The kind of person I am now decided to keep on waking up early in the morning, maintaining an healthy lifestyle, sticking to a moderate budget and being in charge of the responsibilities of a flat. I also found myself studying much more than I thought and travelling less than I wanted. These five months abroad have been a blessing and a lesson at the same time. So if were to tell something I learnt, I would say adulthood. To me it’s been a great opportunity becuase I had to take care of myself and comply with my obligations. In case I had any doubt, now I am totally concious that I can do it.
At the same time it taught me something else. Actually I am coming to terms with the fact that, as much as I try, I cannot run away from myself. I can take a plane, learn a different language, get to know knew people, but I will still be that precise and thoughtful person, I don’t always need to be. So probably, the lesson is this: rather than trying to change it all, I should first of all try to understand it all, looking for compromises between the person I can’t help being and the one I would like to be.
The other day, as I was sitting on the balcony of San Miguel Alto church a thought struck me out of the blue. While enjoying the sunset from one of the highest places on the hill, with the most amazing wiev of the city, deep down I remembered that the only thing that brought me back to Spain was the love for these magic Granada. A place capable of giving, with no need of asking. So I still have faith in the charm of these city and with almost a month left in Spain I believe that potentially, anything could still happen…